uPdaTe … mY brOken heArt will bE heAled wiTh suPer glUe & cheRRios…

I spent a few hours yesterday writing a very long post about what is going on with me.. then I posted it, without checking to see if it posted. When I looked at it this morning, I noticed only the first few sentences had copied and so then I thought WTF, all those thoughts gone. I know I saved it, but can’t find it! Maybe it will show up for dinner at some point and after I beat the crap out of it, I will post it all again.

Actually I am in the hospital due to chest pain, that started last Friday. After an onslaught of tests, SURVEY SAYS my heart needs an overhaul and a pair of new earrings. I need to look perdy cuz I will be having a triple bypass and aortic valve replacement, with fries and cottage cheese on the side. No biggie. I could probably do it meself since I am a nurse but I'm gonna pamper myself and pay some one to do it for me, just this one time.. 

Am I scared? Yes. Shitless.

Am I gonna cry like a girl? You bet your arse.

Have I run into any cute doctors? Yes but I'm a lady and always apologized.

My whole family came together to be with me as the surgery was supposed to be last Thursday, however I developed cellulites in both feet and ankles 2 days prior and the next day I woke up with bursitis on my left kneecap and cannot walk without assistance.  So the date was moved to Monday. That had to be cancelled as well because I still have the infections...  So now we are aiming for Wedsday.

Today, however,  I awoke from my nap only to find that I lost 100 lbs in my sleep,  and have no idea where that wandering  little tub’O’lard  went.  Consequently, no surgery until the infections are gone, which is hopefully soon as I am getting the top guns of antibiotics and they should be kicking in by now.  I  hate waiting on things, specially for a life saving surgery... as Janis Joplin once said  "come on and take it, take another little piece of my heart out, baaabbbyyyy.."

The pain meds I am on are really messing with me head. I will start to say one thing, doze off, then pick up as if I were still in the same conversation when I am not, it makes for awkward yet funny delicious moments.

I will keep you posted, peeps...

C

 

PS

My cleavage is already grieving, she may need a 12 step program... or on going therapy just to deal… Who knows, possibly EST.

For My Daddy, Happy Birthday!!

Me, (in pink) Dad, and my sister Denise, 1966, Malone, NY.

After the divorce, the little guy is my

half brother Kenny.

My mom and dad met in Quebec City, Canada at the Chateau Frontenac on the promenade in 1953.  As the story goes, it was love at first sight.  They were married in 1954 a short time later.  My mom did not speak any English and dad spoke very little French.  I guess they spoke the language of love.  They moved to my dad’s birth place in Connecticut.  That is where all of us were born.  There are 4 of us.  Some of you may know my oldest sister C, known as “ No Drama For the Mama”, then there is a pair of twins, Denise and Dennis, and then I am the baby!!  The marriage didn’t last too long with dad being gone on the road all the time, mom had all of us alone all the time.  She had some suspicions about him which were, in the end, true.  So the inevitable was divorce, and a big move for mom and us kids. 

Our humble little house in Malone, NY.

Here we lived out our days until we all went our separate ways.  Dad would come visit us when he would pass through on his truck routes which were not too often.  We would cherish those times.  We had a hard but good life in our little house in upstate NY.  I think back on all those years….some good, some not so good.  I just wish I could of known my daddy more.  Happy birthday to you, and hope to see you again one day!  I love you!  xxxxxx oooooo 

HELLO, IT’S MEEEEEEEE!

Has it really been MONTHS since I have written?  Wowsers, shame on me.  Where have I been?  Ell if I know the answer….

 

Well, I have plenty of pictures to bore stimulate your senses since I have been gone.  The kiddies have grown into young adults just about!!  lol  I know you are dying to see my doggies…..ha!!  And of course there are the renovations to the house that are finished….so sit tight, grab a bowl of popcorn and drink, cuz Nonna’s got pictures to show!!!

 

my little MOLLY MOO,  4 years old

my darling DELILAH BOO, 9 months old

The tearful reunion of daddy’s homecoming from

his 6-month deployment to Afghanistan.

My lovely daughter Jen, and Molly.

Momma and Dee.

Matt and bouncey Delilah at

Disney World.

Lil Dee chomping on waffles! I could

eat those arm rolls though with some

syrup, or just plain!!!  Yummy!

Going down into our new room.

The room on the right used to be

the main bathroom, now is our

walk-in closet.  Our floor is cork.

The bedroom, still needing a few

personal touches, nic nacs, throw

rugs, etc.

View from bedroom toward living room.

Looking towards the bathroom, it’s on

the left, past the chest of drawers.

Aha, finally, in the bathroom! This used to be a

walk-in closet, small 1/2 bath, and bedroom!

Another view, same bathroom.

Final view, for the shower…this is a steam and

aromatherapy, with chromatherapy.  Has a radio,

all the lights, bells and whistles, two seats, looks

kind of like a space pod.  We love it.

My four babies, taken in October when my daughter

came for a month with the girls.

On the waterfront in New Bern.  New Bern is the

city of Bears.

My last night in Omaha with my sisters and their

family.

My Samuel, at his sister’s birthday.

The birthday girl, Jordan, on the left.

Party central!!!

Well, my bloggy peeps…there ya go.  Have ya had enough?  I think I’ve tortured given you far too much to digest but it has been so long, I wanted to make up for lost time.  ha ha! 

 

Well other things that happened, I went to see my sister for two lovely weeks as you saw in the picture up above.  It was fun.  We spent a lot of time decorating her new place.  I was lucky really? to have had 2 wonderful blizzards while there.  Well we don’t get snow in North Carolina very often, so I have to beg, borrow and steal it when I can. 

 

Those of you who suffer from migraines know the pain that we go through.  I have been having quite a few of them.  Also, I am blessed cursed to have carpal tunnel in both wrists.  So, plans to see the orthopedic surgeon in the next couple weeks are weighing heavy on me lil mind.  I’ve known that surgery was needed for a couple of years but whined and kicked tried hard to put it off since I had elbow and shoulder surgery in the past two years.  I guess we’ll see.

 

So…I guess that’s all folks!  TTFN!  Hope it’s not another 6 months before I blog again!! GEEZ  LOOOEEZ!!

My Lil Family

Here are some pictures of the babies to update you, just cuz I know you have been so wanting to see the lil boogers.  Well, my daughter is coming here for a whole month in October.  The end of October to be exact.  Her hubby is off in the great sand box desert playing war, poor baby, until February.  So she will be here with the girls.  I will be in NONNA heaven!!  I will have all my babies here for a whole month!!  I can’t wait!  LET THE NIBBLING BEGIN!!!

ooops, got carried away, sorry. 

 

here are the pics: lol

Miss Molly the Moo, with attitude

Miss Delilah with a lil tongue action going on….hee hee

also has her daddies dog tags, done on the beach by their house

Monkey Dee, love the hands and dimples

Minnie Mouse Dee, more dimples!!

and finally Piggy Dee!!

Monkey see, monkey do….lol

my other two Jordan and Samuel piled on

me when i watched them the other night!!

 

staying over and Nonna and Papa’s house!

 

Tomorrow is a big day!  My grand daughter Jordan is out of school for 3 weeks now.  So we are going to the big zoo up in Raleigh for the whole day.  It is about 2 1/2 hours away, and should be soooo much fun.  Sammy loves animals.  It is all he has talked about since we told them.  We will probably take the whole gang again in October. 

 

The weather has been cooler here. In the upper 60’s and lower 70’s.  It has been so nice.  Hope it keeps up. 

 

Well, let me know what’s been going on in your part of the world!!

HERE’S WHATS COOKING…

Wow I can not believe that it has been almost a month since I have posted!!  WTH??  Why didn’t someone slap me?  Next time, someone better tell me, because there is just no excuse for that.  Being on a 5 week trip either is no excuse.  But I am home now and settled back into my routine again.  Whew, am I tired!! 

 

We just had an exciting week-end with our friend “Irene” who came to visit us.  She came ashore right here where we live in NC.  Just off shore about an hour from where I live is the outer banks.  The actual ocean is only 30 minutes from our home though.  We only got tree limbs down in our back yard and a lot of leaves and debris down.  No other damage to our property.  We did lose power for two days.  Thankfully, my in-laws had the fore sight to buy a generator years and years ago and we had that.  It saved us.  We had lights and kept the refrigerator going and some fans to keep cool.  All in all, we came out so much better than many in our area. 

 

Tonight I am making smoked grilled pork chops with stuffing.  Asparagus almandine, and garlic crisped potatoes.  My daughter, who used to sell Pampered Chef, sold me a grill pan with the press.  It is cast iron with the cast iron press, like for making panini  sandwiches.  Well, I went to the commissary today and bought rib-eye steaks, smoked pork chops and chicken breasts.  So for the next few days I will be experimenting on the grill pan.  Tonight is pork chop night!!  So, folks, that is what’s cooking at my house tonight.  What have you got going on in your kitchen?

I'M HOME!!!!!

Well it has been so long since I last posted, I almost forgot how! I just returned from my 5 week long excursion driving across the states to see my family. I left the east coast of NC and headed west. I made my first stop at a friends house in KY. Spent several days there, and left to have lunch with another "up the road" in Dayton, OH! Yup, it was a hoot. From there I was planning on going straight to my sisters in Omaha, NE but it was just too much for me. So....I decided to stop over in Chicago and spend the night. Well, I just happen to know someone I blog with there!!! I dropped her a line and also my sissy had her number so we got her. We had breakfast the next morning together! She is so funny and boy is her brother cute!! If I wasn't happily married, someone would have a fight on her hands, eh, cheech??

So off I go to Nebraska.....for almost 3 weeks. Next I'm headed south to see my brother Denden! Of course, my sister C is filling you in on all the family drama! Lol never a dull moment here! Well, I had a good 10 days at my bro's and his wife's house. Lots of shopping, went riding on his harley, good eats, visiting!

Now it's off to me lil girl's house. The one that just had the baby. Delilah is two and half months old now! Time flies, eh?? I only stayed a few days there because her hubby is getting ready to leave for many months overseas and they needed family time. So I got some good nibbling time in and said my good-byes. She will come here while he is away for a lil vacay.
Papa hasn't seen his newest one yet. The night before I left, she and watched "My Cousin Vinny" one our fave movies. This is an important key factor to the next paragraph. Lol

As I left, I like to drive at night, one, because it is cooler, two, less traffic. I drove toward the interstate. She lives in a small town in the panhandle of FL. So, I had to go through some backwoods of ALABAMA to get on the interstate. Well, if you remember in My Cousin Vinny, where do you think they get pulled over? ALA FRICKEN BAMA !! You got it, me too!! I was just minding my own bidness, singing to Adele as loud as I could, and I reached over to grab a piece of gum and barely strayed over the yellow line!! He was right behind me. All I saw was blue lights flashing and my mind flashed to the two boys in the movie and all I could think was...."I'm gonna go to jail in Ala FRICKEN bama! And I don't have a cousin Vinny!! Lol the officer asked if I knew why he pulled me over, at the time, I didn't know. I knew I wasn't speeding. He told me. Then he asked if I was taking any medications, I said just my migraine ones and blood pressure ones, praying he didn't see my pill container of 50 in the back seat!!! Lol He said hold on and checked everything. Come on, I drove all across the country and I'm a few hours from home and I get stopped?? Give me a break!!! I have never gotten a ticket or been cited for any accident or been in one ever! (knocking on wood) When he returned he said he didn't see a problem, but next time when I reach for something PLEASE just pull over. I apologized and told him I would. Thanked him and got the hell outta Alabama. I lived in that state for several years, and I don't want to offend any one who lives there. But I will never live there again!!! It's beautiful, and the people are nice, but the laws and stuff, well....I will just leave it at watch the movie, My Cousin Vinny, it's just like that!

I made reservations at a nice Hilton where my honey was to rendezvous with me. We went out to dinner, drinks, and had such a romantic wonderful time. The next morning we took our time and drove home, had a very nice  breakfast, and it was only 2.5 hours from home. So now it's back to the old routine, and it's so good to be home. I am going to try and upload some pics. Since I'm trying to do this from the iPad for the first time, forgive if I screw up, they may be out of order.

I Smell A Trip

Well I am off and running again!!  So much gloom and doom and for me, so I got to run it off!!  Yup, a trip is in the forcast.  I am leaving in a few days.  I will be driving across country to Nebraska of all places!!  What country is that in???  haha 

 

MY sisters live there.  I will make one or two little stops along the way in Kentucky.  No, not to play the horses, silly.  Though that would be fun.  Maybe have to stop and think about that.  I have a long time friend that I want to visit there.  Then another just up the road in Ohio.  I do have a few friends.  I haven’t seen them since we left the school we worked at 3 years ago.  I miss me girls!! 

 

Then off to the prairie!  I will spend 2 lovely weeks with the sisters arguing, fussing and fighting….lol.  Nah, that is just with one.  I get along with the other one.  You all know her as C. She is me favorite. 

So, anyhoo than I am off to my brothers.  He is my favorite of brothers too.  My only one.  hee hee  He is sooo cute.  He always makes me feel so special.  They all do.  I am the baby of the family.  But I am the one that always travels to all the far corners of the world to see everyone.  So they treat me good. 

Then it is off to my daughters to finish the trip that I started this month when we got the call about my mom-in-law.  Bless her.  She was a good woman. 

 

Anyway, I have unfinished nibbling to do, and Molly cuddling to also.  Oh, and then there is my daughter.  I keep forgetting her!!  LOL  She is soooo cute….I can’t forget the one that gave me all these cute babies!!  Well, there were two!

Of course, there are many recent ones, but this has all of them in it.  Here is one of the most recent of me lil Lilah loo and her sister Molly moo! 

Yes, they are soooo edible aren’t they?  I could eat them for breakfast, lunch and dinner!!!  And there is enough for snacks too!!!  LOL  So that is my agenda folks.  In case your looking for me.  I will be poking along at a fine speed of lolly gaggying cuz I ain’t in any hurry!!  If your in the fast lane, just get your panties all hitched up and mozy on by me.  I will be taking me lil ole time.  I’m on southern vacation time. 

So if you see this lil cutie, don’t hit it, don’t park near it, don’t breathe on it, don’t spit on it, don’t fling boogers or ashes on it.  Don’t even smell it….cuz it has that new car smell and you will suck it all out!!!  LOL  It will be me having my vacation….at a snails pace.  That’s how I roll!!

FIRES THAT RAGED FOR DAYS

THIS IS WHAT THE SMOKE LOOKED LIKE ACROSS THE SOUND LOOKING OUT TOWARD THE BEACH.  YOU COULD NOT SEE THE WATER.  IT LASTED FOR 4 DAYS BEFORE WE GOT RAIN.  THANK GOD WE DID.  I AM NOT SURE WHAT ACREAGE WAS DAMAGED TOTAL, BUT IT WAS A GREAT AMOUNT.  THE SMOKE WAS BAD ENOUGH. 

 

My Littlest Angel

In all this gloomy news and debbie downer drearyness, I thought I would update some photos of my newest baby Delilah.  Here, eat till your lil tummy’s are full!!!

 

a few days after i left

last week, after she gained all her weight plus another pound! piggy!

taken this morning with sister molly, so happy!

 

On another serious note, we have been battling wild fires here in our area.  They are totally out of control at the moment.  Our precious national forests are being eaten up because of lack of rain.  They were started from a lightning strike.  We have such hazy fog from the burns that we can’t see across the road.  We have people with breathing problems, my hubby is one of them, who are suffering so badly with their health because of the smoke.  We don’t know how long it will go on.  They have called it a state of emergency.  Please keep this situation in your prayers.  I know that with the heat index and humidity it is pretty bad.  Add in the smoke and those with breathing problems have it so much worse.  I have allergies but nothing like my husband.  There are many who have it so much worse and on oxygen.  Anyway, please keep this in your prayers and thoughts.  We appreciate it. 

 

We have been doing a lot better this week as we are dealing with the reality of how people handle the death of your beloved.  In other words….they just don’t give a crap!!  It is just another day to them.  Life goes on.  When dealing with insurance or lawyers or anything of that matter…you can just bend over and let them give it to you good.  The only people we have found to have any compassion or mercy were the Hospice people and the funeral home people.  They deal with death all the time and know how to cope with it.  All the others are uncaring and heartless.  They just want their money and want it yesterday.  Sorry, just giving a few words of warning and advice to those of you in case you should need it in the near future.  But it may not all be like that, it may just be this one place, and your lawyers and insurance peeps may be fine.  And if your in the business?  So sorry, don’t mean to drag your profession in the tubes.  One bad apple shouldn’t have to spoil the whole bunch.  They do get a bad rap all around after all.  We just have had a terrible week, and on top of it all bad service.  So, just venting.  And you don’t want me to get started on government people, that is a WHOLE other blog…..stupid social security people and government people…..don’t get me started down that path!!!!  k, I am leaving that alone. 

 

Well, peeps. I will go check my blood pressure now….cuz I think on that last note, it started to creep back up!!  lmao   Take care, God bless, and remember, go get your physicals and check ups.  Never know when something creepy is lurking around.  K?  xxxxxxx ooooooooo

Bringing Momma Home

This sweet lady has been a part of my life for the last 30 years.  I can’t imagine life without her.  She is such a wonderful and selfless woman.  Only two months ago she lost her beloved husband of 56 years.  Today we brought her home from the hospital after being diagnosed with acute promyelocytic leukemia about a week ago.  This cancer is so aggressive, it came on and was not even treatable.  How freaky bad is that?? 

This is the happy couple on their last anniversary.  Today, they are together.  We brought Momma home this afternoon around 4pm.  At 5:30, she was gone.  That quick.  I was gone to the pharmacy for the Hospice nurse to get her comfort meds….while I was gone, she passed away.  My hubby was here alone.  He called my cell all hysterical.  It was at the bottom of my purse.  I didn’t hear it.  I had to wait on a medicine that they had to call the Dr. for.  I was very upset I wasn’t here.  He needed me.  He was sitting on the floor beside her bed sobbing when I got here, inconsolable.  My poor baby hasn’t even mourned his dad’s death hardly and now his mom is gone in a matter of two months.  We knew she would not last  very long, but this really shocked us both.  I told him after the nurse left, I didn’t like the way she was breathing.  It reminded me of the way his dad looked just before he died.  He agreed.  I never thought…..

Well, we brought her home so she could go home to be with the Lord.  And that she did.  Now she is with her husband.  No more pain, no more arthritis, and no more DAMN LEUKEMIA!!!  Bye Momma, we will miss you! 

My Lil Peanut

Here is my lil peanut with her mommy doing the every day stuff of life….eating and sleeping and just being cute.  What else is there….oh, yeah…hanging out with my sister….and my Nonna.  Ok, not much else.

check out my dimples, yup i got ‘em… (in the “peanut wrap”)

this is what i call “the peanut wrap” and i’m staring at my Nonna

 

I love my girls….they are the sweetest things.